The assumptions of others (2011 Week 35 Update)

I lost 0.2 pounds last week.
I was 238 calories under budget.
I didn't log my food and exercise one day.
Exercise included walking (mostly at work) and gardening.
My diet was 9.5% protein.

Recently at work, there was a fundraiser for the alzheimers association. Two of my coworkers made homemade salsa and chips, sold for $5 per container, and all the staff and residents could buy them and the proceeds went to the nonprofit.

The residents where I work are older and forgetful, and one woman came to the desk, very angry, wanting to know where her salsa and chips were. She hadn't ordered any, but she was sure that she had. The woman who is in charge of the event made her a special batch just to keep her happy -- she brought the salsa that day, and the chips a few days later. We called her and told her the chips were ready for her to pick up, and she didn't pick them up...and still didn't pick them up.

I came into work yesterday, and the bag was open and much depleted. "Where did Pat's chips go?!" I asked, and my coworker explained to me that Pat said she didn't want them anymore, and she and our other office worker had been snacking on and off through the day.

Later, our manager came out to give me my lunch break before she went home, and when I got back from my meal, she looks at me kind of condescendingly, and says..."I notice these chips are open...have you been eating Pat's chips?!"

It kind of hurt my feelings that she would think I had just been tearing into someone else's food because it was there and handy. I explained the situation, and kind of made a joke out of it, and she laughed...but it hit me the wrong way.

Up a little again...(2011 Week 34 Update)

Up 1.4 pounds last week. :-(
Under 498 calories
Only 1600 exercise (walking, cleaning)
12 % protein

I haven't been extremely focused on fitness and weight loss recently but I am still tracking everything, every day. Sometimes the numbers going up and down seem so arbitrary. And I know that if that's the case I need to find OTHER measurements or successes to focus on. And loseit is helping with that---hey, I met my calorie goal last week, that's good. But whine, whine I wish my numbers were getting smaller faster.

My new job has started to feel a lot more manageable, and my class this fall is going well. I really need to start working more gym and exercise time back into my schedule. I think I'll work on that tonight.

Trying out a new mantra...

Somewhere I read the idea to ask myself:

"Is this what I want?" Is this *really* what I want?"

when I am about to have something unhealthy. I've been trying it out the last 2 days and although it's no fail safe, I think it may be helping a little bit.

It helps take me away form the immediate WANT SUGAR NOW and gets me to refocus on my goals and maybe have a glass of water or another healthier substitute instead, and hopefully slow down and acknowledge that I am feeling anxious or lonely, not really hungry.