Fatness sucks: case in point

For two years, a friend of mine from school and I have been planning on arranging a hot air balloon ride to celebrate successfully completing our school program. Over the last couple of months we've been tossing dates back and forth and making a more specific plan. I finally called to make the reservation today, after including a couple more friends in the planned outing, volunteering to drive to the site, and encouraging everyone else to make their reservations soon too.

The hot air balloon company won't take me because of my weight. Their usual maximum limit is 240 pounds but they will allow up to 300 for an additional fee. I'm still over that.

Luckily, when I had to tell my friends I couldn't do it they were supportive, but the whole thing was awkward and embarrassing for me.

Maybe I can revisit the idea later. :-(

Met with my primary care doctor

I'm doing fairly well on the >100g protein (using shakes/supplements) and <100g carbs plan that my doctor outlined for me. I'm down somewhere between 4-9 pounds in 2 months of trying. I have a pretty wide day-to-day fluctuation so I can't give it an exact number.

I had a follow up appointment with my primary care doctor today. I had been to the surgical weight loss seminar a couple weeks ago, and hoped to get a referral from my doctor to at least start the 6 month process to get it approved. Not to necessarily go through with it, but to have it as an option.

My doctor wouldn't refer me. He wants me to give it at least a year of medical management with him before I consider surgery seriously. I showed him my graphs of weight over the last 15 years, and the yo-yo-ing. His plan for me is the protein diet, then metformin, then possibly phentermine. I've already been on metformin before, for about 8 years. I don't feel like it helped me with my weight loss. My weight yo-yo-ed during that time just as it did during others, and it gave me GI distress. Phentermine I haven't been on before, but stimulants kind of scare me. He also mentioned trying Topamax. I remember my mom being on Topamax "for migraines," but really for weight loss back in 2005 or so. It made her very verbally slow and very forgetful. I don't think I could stand that, in my professional or personal life.

Going to take this one step at a time but disappointed that he wouldn't help me get the other process started.

Pretty frustrated... :-/ (2011 week 15 Update)

Over the last week I was a total of 2,200 calories under budget (pretty much all from exercise; I was aiming to meet my calories right on with eating). I got an estimated 3700 calories of exercise between housework, gardening, yard work, walking and biking. And I gained 2.2 pounds.

It's that time of the month so I *want* to not read too much into it, but at the same time, looking at my charts over the last bit here, it has definitely become a trend:

I have definitely felt like I've been doing all the right things for the last week. And I guess it was the week before that I was really pushing to get back on track again.

I'm not sure what else to do here, so I guess I'll just give it a little more time and try to keep being consistent.