Met with my primary care doctor

I'm doing fairly well on the >100g protein (using shakes/supplements) and <100g carbs plan that my doctor outlined for me. I'm down somewhere between 4-9 pounds in 2 months of trying. I have a pretty wide day-to-day fluctuation so I can't give it an exact number.

I had a follow up appointment with my primary care doctor today. I had been to the surgical weight loss seminar a couple weeks ago, and hoped to get a referral from my doctor to at least start the 6 month process to get it approved. Not to necessarily go through with it, but to have it as an option.

My doctor wouldn't refer me. He wants me to give it at least a year of medical management with him before I consider surgery seriously. I showed him my graphs of weight over the last 15 years, and the yo-yo-ing. His plan for me is the protein diet, then metformin, then possibly phentermine. I've already been on metformin before, for about 8 years. I don't feel like it helped me with my weight loss. My weight yo-yo-ed during that time just as it did during others, and it gave me GI distress. Phentermine I haven't been on before, but stimulants kind of scare me. He also mentioned trying Topamax. I remember my mom being on Topamax "for migraines," but really for weight loss back in 2005 or so. It made her very verbally slow and very forgetful. I don't think I could stand that, in my professional or personal life.

Going to take this one step at a time but disappointed that he wouldn't help me get the other process started.

Attended surgical weight loss seminar

Last night I went to a surgical weight loss seminar put on by a local bariatric surgeon and his team. The doctor said he doesn't perform lap band surgery anymore because it's not proven effective in the long term. Just a few years ago my mom was trying to talk me into having that surgery with her. She got it, herself. Got down to a healthy weight but then gained it all back again. Whenever I pictured getting that done I thought I'd feel like Ping the Duck, in a childhood story I read, with a ring around his neck that prevented him from swallowing his fishing catch.

One thing the doctor pointed out in the seminar that I didn't know is that if you need to take medications regularly, and have them absorb well, a gastric bypass is not the best option -- you not only have limitations on absorbing nutrients, but on medications as well. The gastric sleeve, which is what my friend had, doesn't do this. But sometimes people get really bad acid reflux after the sleeve and end up having to convert to the bypass (which corrects the reflux).

I gave them my information at the seminar with the thought of starting their process in case my current gung-ho efforts at weight loss through increased protein and decreased carbs doesn't turn my health around enough. If I'm going to move forward in their process (which would take at least 6 months before insurance would approve it, including nutritionist and psychiatrist appointments leading up to the surgery) the next step is to get a referral from my primary care doctor and have him send over my labs etc. My next follow up with my primary care doctor is in 2 weeks, so I'll talk with him about it then.

Giving protein another try

Some time has gone by, obviously. I haven't made major headway in the weight department, but I have begun my new career in nursing and it is going well, despite my size. Whew.

At the end of last summer my primary care doctor retired and referred me to another physician in the same practice that specializes in obesity medicine. We met in January for a specially set aside appointment to discuss weight management: he wanted to have a larger block of time and really focus on that. It appeared to be a busy day at the office and we only really met for between 5 and 10 minutes, but I'm refocused on specific goals again. He wants me to aim for greater than 100g protein per day as well as less than 100g carbohydrate.

For a couple of years (and the last time I was updating this blog regularly) I was tracking everything I put in my mouth using the LoseIt app on my ipod. Although I think it was helping, it just began to feel to cumbersome and time consuming for diminishing returns. But I've used it recently to check in on those macronutrient amounts.

My doctor recommended a specific protein supplement (which comes in a whey powder to make smoothies out of, or a pre-packaged "shake" drink). He told me to drink 2-3 of those per day and then have a dinner of real foods, with about half protein (lean meats) and half non-starchy vegetables.

I am mostly vegetarian, but eat fish now and then. After the appointment I went to the grocery store and bought a couple weeks supply of the pre-packed drink and a tub of the powder, as well as some individually freeze-wrapped fish portions.

I'm about a month in now, and I'm doing really well with the protein drinks (and meeting the >100g protein requirement) but I can't bring myself to eat animal flesh, of any kind, daily. One or two tuna salad sandwiches a month, yes. If they have lots of celery and sprouts and lettuce and honey mustard to sort of distract me from the fact that I'm eating flesh.

I went veggie at age 9, and I think when you haven't eaten substantial meat for that long you just lose a taste for it. In my mid twenties I started eating fish again every now and then. Can't bring myself to eat more at this point though.

Anyways, so with the protein supplements, 2 of them per day definitely left me HUNGRY, but 3 per day plus a meal is doable. I make my own blended ones when I'm at home and use the pre-packs to bring to work for my 12 hour shifts (easiest lunch I've ever packed). I also eat almonds through the day. I do end up craving and splurging on carbs and sweets though. I'm working on that and making some headway.

With what I've done so far, I've lost about 5 1/2 pounds over the last 5 weeks. And that's with not complying with the carbohydrate limit yet (I'm working on it!). So I'm feeling optimistic. A pound a week adds up to 50 pounds a year if I can keep it up.

Another thing I've been thinking about though: a coworker of mine got a sleeve gastrectomy at about the same time I started this diet regime. She's lost about 30 pounds so far and has 30 more to go. Her whole process went smoothly and she feels great. I know weight loss surgery is a major, major intervention to contemplate, but I've been thinking about it more seriously after seeing her success.

I'm 35 now. Although I've been making major changes in my professional life over the last 5 years I feel like my personal life (love, family, babies eg) has been set permanently on the back burner due to my size. And I'm increasingly feeling like time is running out. I'm thinking about taking a more drastic approach that would get quicker more permanent results. I've lost 30 to 40 pounds before, repeatedly, the "traditional way" and gained most of it back when I went through a period of depression or had a medication change.

I think part of what really peaked my interest about the surgery my coworker had was that they remove part of the stomach that produces ghrelin, which is the hormone that makes us feel hungry. It is irreversible. I suppose if you were non-compliant with the post op diet you could potentially re-stretch your stomach beyond the banana size one they give you in surgery. I like that there are no foreign objects in there like there are with the lap band, and you don't have to get fills and adjustments.

So my plan for now is to keep going with the nutritional changes, and keep aiming for >10,000 steps per day (easy on work days, harder on my days off), but at the same time start researching weight loss surgery more in depth. My coworker had hers done in Mexico for $4,000 even, and while it sounds sketchy, she said it was the best medical experience she's ever had in terms of cleanliness, safety, comfort. There's also a surgeon in my county who does them and has information seminars about once a month, so I'll go to one of those soon and check it out.

That's where I'm at right now. I've updated my weight chart down at the bottom of the blog -- I'm at 358.4 lbs right now and I've been averaging about 6-7,000 steps per day for the last 3 months.  Next update sooner.